well i don't really care about that. it's just that, i am so tired. not enough sleep. and the days are just drifting by. and i hate myself cause i kept asking what's the purpose of life. life is suffering. no, don't tell me it's up to how i live it. cause it's a fact. once we are born into this world, we are meant to suffer. and i know i can't just end my life like that, cause that would be selfish. don't get me wrong, i dun have any psychological problem. no, i am not gonna commit suicide. that's stupid. i have suffered for two decades. you think i'm going to give up now?
these few days, i have been eating a lot. like, a lot. and i still don't feel full. feels like i am getting fatter :( and i still exercise... but i wonder if my calorie intake is more than what i burn. there seems to be no progress on the losing end. and i wonder what it is that i am doing wrong? but i dun have a scale with me. so i can't exactly weigh myself and make a record of my progress.
dana lunch was finally over last saturday. that's one thing of my list. baw is this week and it's gonna be over this friday. after that, i think i can at least get a breather. but no, i have two tests next week. and two lab reports to hand in the week after that. next week is the last week of the first half semester. time seriously flies this sem.
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