emo.

i am not sure if it's PMS. if it is, then i'm really glad.

sometimes, i just feel so sad. about myself. and the questions are stupid questions like

1.why am i always wasting time?

2.why can't i be smarter?

3.why can't i be thinner?

4.why can't i have smooth skin?

5.why am i not disciplined?

and it really freaks me out cause i have got absolutely nothing good about myself to flaunt. nothing that i can show off.

i'm not smart.

i'm not pretty.

i'm not sexy.

i'm not talented.

i can't dance.

i can't sing.

i can't play any musical instrument.

i can't run for nuts.

the point is: i can't think of anything GOOD about myself.

i once read in an article that one of the ways to make yourself feel good is to write what you're good at or what you are proud of.

but seriously,

i have nothing.

oh yeah, i know i have legs and hands. i have vision and sight and smell and taste.

SO WHAT?

everyone has those. those are basic NECESSITIES in life.

i mean come on, you have a flat. ok fine, but is that enough for you? NO, now you want a terrace house. or maybe you have a run-down mini van. but now you want a better car.

geddit?!

something's wrong with me :(